Without Warning

there was no last word

just there and then gone

summer became winter

but the leaves didn’t change

a single contrary word

and our lives whisked away

clouds barely covering the sun

before the storm tore up everything

days became less recognizable

every night seemed everlasting

yet there must still be love

my last beacon, I hoped

it went up and they watched

but nothing came my way

the cold became unbearable

spring was nowhere in sight

as they left without warning

11/12/19

Our Songs

my wish was for deafness

whenever I heard our music

all the memories flooded me

summer car rides and weekends

the times I would never forget

my playlist began to betray me

and there was no escaping it

I will not let myself hear

take the verses from my mind

now that you are gone

my heart can’t bear our songs

11/10/19

Avoidance of Actuality

Although legends falsely claimed ostriches bury their heads to avoid danger, they actually do this to arrange their eggs which are buried underground. However, their practice continues to be a great illustration for avoidance.

how does it end

thoughts of that are simple

and perfection was the dream

but is most impossible

the actuality is so difficult

tying the end to the beginning

and the unavoidable rift in-between

teeming with action and decision

exhausting change and busyness

nothing’s done as fast as time races

in a blink the world has grown

and yet, I have not

Does anyone else have this problem or feel in a similar way at times? If not, do you have any advice? I know that this something that I have found I seriously struggle with, and there are many factors involved with it. Let me know what you think in the comments, and thank you so much for reading!


10/31/19

Humanity and Insanity

he began to forget the further he went

the way of men he tried hard to resent

and in his solitude, the longer he spent

purpose deprived in the continued acsent

There is something that we must be conscious and careful of as the world moves deeper into the path of technology and innovation. That is, we must never confuse humanity with insanity.

We can imagine a world a hundred years in the future, where we have a new generation born on mars. Many people may own flying cars. There may be explorations being set forth past our solar system, into the great unknown. However, we must never forget what we are. We are humans, first.

We are explorers and crafters, yes. We are inquirers and questioners, always.

But, we are also lovers. We are helpers. We are believers and dreamers. We are passionate. We have fear, and anger. We have sadness too, and it’s okay to feel all of it. It natural to be vulnerable, and feel helpless for a moment. Because when you feel helpless, that’s when we need humanity most. We need the embrace of a friend. When we fall, we can grasp for the hand humanity extends. We must be there for each other.

Will we forget to look fondly at the earth as we soar past our atmosphere? Will love and mercy become a distorted in our minds, as a hurdle we must jump over for success? Will reacting naturally to emotionally stimulating experiences become some sort of psychological anomaly, and therefore looked upon as the real problem? Will the logical operations that run our machines overrun us, and cause us to forget who we truly are at our core? Will we lose our purpose on the way to the stars? If the answer is yes to any of these, that is the insanity that we must fear.

The farther we go, the more we learn, the better we build, we must not forget our home. And our home is this. It’s us. Humans on planet earth.

There will never be a star for us like the sun. And earth will forever be home with its peoples.

a rumination after viewing the motion picture “Ad Astra”

10/20/19

Inside my window

I knew that you could see it too

since I wasn’t far from you

the sky gray as the wind blew

just from out my window

it wasn’t something new

seeing you passing through

but the distance between us grew

as I waved behind my window

the storm quieted as it brewed

and I was only someone you knew

from here I watched the view

trapped inside my window

10/15/19