Our Songs

my wish was for deafness

whenever I heard our music

all the memories flooded me

summer car rides and weekends

the times I would never forget

my playlist began to betray me

and there was no escaping it

I will not let myself hear

take the verses from my mind

now that your are gone

my heart can’t bear our songs

what we held on to

what else did we have to hold on to
other than the messages we shared
or the old and newish memories
all the nostalgic objects and places
awaking our care, tearing us deeper

what else did we have to hold on to
if we couldn’t have your embrace
or take strolls on the streets as we did
and enjoy any sort of engagement
to open your mind and your heart

what else did we have to hold on to
apart from the prayers and hopes
that our paths would cross someday
when the truth had set you all free
and with us you can begin again